Ramblings Of A SAHM

For Such A Time As This?

The other night my girlfriends and I were sitting around chatting. We were discussing discontent and how it affects us in our every day lives.

I’ll admit I’m discontent in a lot of things, I think it’s human nature.

But the one thing I struggle with the most is discontent in not knowing what I am called to do in this life. I want to know my purpose.

Why God chose to send me to Earth for such a time as this. I ache to know how I can make a difference.

And I struggle when I see girls in their early 20s who seem to have it all figured out. They are running non-profits, they are slaying it in successful careers, they are using their struggles as a platform to help others overcome.

And I’ll admit it, I’m green with envy.

I mean where is my flashing neon sign showing me what I’m called to do? Where is my health struggle that allows me to connect and relate with others (not that I wish to be sick)? Where is my calling?

I want to find my “thing”, my place. I want to find my sweet spot that not only makes my heart sing but is also the plan that God created for me.

And sometimes I just feel helpless, almost as if I am a waste. What if I’m wasting what I’m supposed to be doing? What if I have missed the signs?

But I’ve come to realize that God has this thing called “timing” and that some find their callings early on in life, while others like myself have to wait.

Which let’s face it, patience has never been my thing.

But it’s vital in His plan.

I mean think about how intricate His plan really is, He knows what we are going to do before we even do it. Even though we have the freedom to choose, He’s already a step ahead of us, knowing our next move.

He has it all laid out.

And although at times I feel like I may not be the person He thought I could be, the person who is supposed to execute a part of His plan.

I have to trust and believe that actually, I am.

That we are all here for a reason, each individual has a role to play. Every single interaction we make has an impact. Every single choice we make not only affects ourselves but others. It all comes together.

So while you may be sitting here feeling like you don’t have a purpose, trust me when I say you do. You have a calling. We all do.

Some find it early on in life, while others won’t discover it til much later. But you will find your calling. You will know your purpose.

Because none of us were placed here by chance. We were specifically chosen…

“For such a time as this.” Esther 4:14

So don’t be so hard on yourself, stop thinking you aren’t enough and that God doesn’t have a plan for you. Because He does, and in his timing, you will discover it.

And it will all fall into place at exactly the right time and in the right season.

So for now, just keep moving forward, keep walking down the path, trying new things, and making choices with His help.

You’ll get there eventually. But don’t forget to enjoy the journey along the way.

There is no sense in being distracted and envious of others who have found their path.

Because my friend,

Your time is coming.

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  1. Great post! I remember feeling MUCH like this in my 20’s as well. It seemed everyone was talking about Destiny and Calling and I was terrified I would miss mine. (God graciously told me three things to focus on each day that would guarantee that I would not miss my big picture destiny. I have tried to keep them front and center and I can say they have made all the difference. Speak Life. Be Love. Shine On.) Now your things may be different, but if we are leaning in and following His lead every day, He will lead us right into where we are supposed to be! You won’t miss it!

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